A Love Letter to Autumn

You look out of the window
There’s a new season smiling at you
The last spell of the monsoons has bid adieu
The old leaves waited still, ceaselessly for one last flutter
In the autumn breeze,
And when they do they gently glide
Down the trees to the trodden path


You look out of the window
A leaf has landed on the familiar sight
Behold, it’s not a leaf, its something
Something that has its own value
Essence in true spirit and beauty
In the form of a damsel
Here she glides, gently and reassuringly


There is an old saying
You cannot tell your heart who they should fall in love with
Though I parted from you, years ago
Yet know, oh charming!
After a conflict of love and honor
For my noble pursuit; you came in view!
With all the charms of blooming youth
All the attractions of heavenly beauty
Your irresistible delight
In you, I have discovered a thousand ravishing graces



I dare not think on
Lest my desires grow mad
Oh! You have been such an adorable
My words alone can justify
You to know the flame in me
Tell me, what kind, of charms and tricks
Have you been to me?
Or is that the tense that worries you
I’ll put another way– Are you to me?

730 days of Hunger

DAY 5: Its not really as expected. Life has too much to betray you. your emotion is among them, no matter you try to hide or cover it. It doesnt cease.Did try to cover up, couldn't do so.Try to emphasize, didn't matter. So so was day 1,2,3,4

April Snows and May Icebergs

Hopefully, I pray that these happens in reality , in my part of the world, Im ean the Indian Sub-continent . But it may not, hence can be termed just as a Dream. Dreams that you tend to nurture. When you fulfilled your dreams you get satisfaction but if not you fret. I dream of manythings which hasn't yet been realised . So it just remain as it is enclosed in my mind.
These months has been good for me in some other ways . My granny passed away and that gives me a good excuse to flee from the scorchy Delhi heat for few days. Those days were numbered yet I am happy for those. At the funeral service , I got to meet many of my relatives whom I had forgotten entirely or couldn't recollect any instance when I met them. But then , I also ventured out to some prohibited territories where I was forbiden to venture when I was in my school days. Getting back to my grandfather 's place makes me remind of my child days. Days where I was forbidden to go out for river, to go in the fields, to roam the forests. But these barriers were broken when I visited these time, I went for fishing ,hunting , and when I ventured out I turn back and remind to myself- "see I proved it '.....
I was happy , the void that left in me wehenver I visit my grandfather on my holidays were no more . At the same time, I was amazed and realized my foolishness , because ,these days children who are just coming out from todling also roam freely in the forests ,swims leisurely on the waters.
I am happy as well as worried on these....

MAY 2009

Circa Elections 2009, we have a new Prime Minister again , the IPL is over now with the DECCAN CHARGERS charging ahead the Bangalore Challengers off the pitch. Back there in Lanka, the LTTE has been routed out. Many things have happened ,is happening and will happened for sure . One thing to notice here is that I guess nothing will ever happen anything out of me. Yes, Life is a bittersweet pill for me these days. I guess I just want to pop up some pills and say myself have a good night dream.Indeed, life has its own innersome presence which one should felt, but I hardly felt and I dont want to be

I guess if GOD will let me go for a cruise or a long vaccation , that will be ideal idea for me to get rid of this solitude yearning for me.

When things got monotonous

Just few days ago, our company CEO send us some stress busters ideas. It was a relief for some of us, coz its very rare that a CEO send such kind of mails. Anyway, when I was reading that mail it become obvious that life was not hectic or a stress thing for me, but rather its me or us that making our life a "torrid affair'.

I think that life is going just on a slow patch, just slow not steady. I just want to get out of it quick, or maybe I just want a magic wand be with me so that i can be of helpful,to somebody or else others that matters. But its not going that way , rather being a absolute Christian, its a fool thought to convey these matters. At the same time if we look at the world's propoganda, it just says, live it!
Do you think that you are really living ! Living for a cause? Living for what?
Sentiments do hamper people but at this solidarity point, it just bugs me , to the fullset. Hope or wishes just pushes me to the limit .
Yes , I am beginning to feel that life has been and was and might be monotonous all the time.......

Fireflies in the Garden

There are movies that just make you realise where you are, that reaches your heart or touches you . These movie did touch me, in one or more way. I simply watch these movie because of Julia Roberts, but then I feel lucky that I have watched these movie because I learnt something from these movie. Its quite parralel to my own life.
Its a story about a dominating father(Charles) , a mother ( Lisa), son (Michael), daughter ( Rhyne), Lisa's younger sister Jane. The movie starts with young Michael make to walk home in the rain by his father, which solidifies his stranded relationship with his father . Later, again he was punished because he falsely claimed to have written something ,which was a copy of somebody's poem. These episodes really ignite the hatred for the son to his father, which was sometime repaiermended and comforted by Lisa and Jane.
Later after twenty years, when they met again for family reunion, they lost Lisa in an accident, then the movie paces on. I mean ,there is nothing new set of story in these movie but the light just shone their, I simply care for the kind of truce or forgiveness that Michael undertook .

Did you ever knew that you were here..

Sometimes, we human being tend to characterize every thing that we tend to forget we are doing our own assassination, I mean characteristically. There comes a time ,when you think that you have reach a point where at least you can remain steady for a moment ,but then it just get engulf away , away through various channels.
I have been a championing in these particular phrase "love marriage', by supporting my fellow friends and near ones, at the same time, these days I tend to realize that you don't just assume and go forth . You need certain speed breakers to make yourself aware that you are not driving at a great speed. I mean ,take me, I am 25, single, working, life is delicious for me, but at the same time with the walk of life and things going around my backyard , I tend to think of many things that generally a youth would do.But then ,it arose a question of "responsibility' or kind of "commitment" which just makes me realize that I am not in these kind of horizon.

to be contd..