MAY 2009

Circa Elections 2009, we have a new Prime Minister again , the IPL is over now with the DECCAN CHARGERS charging ahead the Bangalore Challengers off the pitch. Back there in Lanka, the LTTE has been routed out. Many things have happened ,is happening and will happened for sure . One thing to notice here is that I guess nothing will ever happen anything out of me. Yes, Life is a bittersweet pill for me these days. I guess I just want to pop up some pills and say myself have a good night dream.Indeed, life has its own innersome presence which one should felt, but I hardly felt and I dont want to be

I guess if GOD will let me go for a cruise or a long vaccation , that will be ideal idea for me to get rid of this solitude yearning for me.

When things got monotonous

Just few days ago, our company CEO send us some stress busters ideas. It was a relief for some of us, coz its very rare that a CEO send such kind of mails. Anyway, when I was reading that mail it become obvious that life was not hectic or a stress thing for me, but rather its me or us that making our life a "torrid affair'.

I think that life is going just on a slow patch, just slow not steady. I just want to get out of it quick, or maybe I just want a magic wand be with me so that i can be of helpful,to somebody or else others that matters. But its not going that way , rather being a absolute Christian, its a fool thought to convey these matters. At the same time if we look at the world's propoganda, it just says, live it!
Do you think that you are really living ! Living for a cause? Living for what?
Sentiments do hamper people but at this solidarity point, it just bugs me , to the fullset. Hope or wishes just pushes me to the limit .
Yes , I am beginning to feel that life has been and was and might be monotonous all the time.......

Fireflies in the Garden

There are movies that just make you realise where you are, that reaches your heart or touches you . These movie did touch me, in one or more way. I simply watch these movie because of Julia Roberts, but then I feel lucky that I have watched these movie because I learnt something from these movie. Its quite parralel to my own life.
Its a story about a dominating father(Charles) , a mother ( Lisa), son (Michael), daughter ( Rhyne), Lisa's younger sister Jane. The movie starts with young Michael make to walk home in the rain by his father, which solidifies his stranded relationship with his father . Later, again he was punished because he falsely claimed to have written something ,which was a copy of somebody's poem. These episodes really ignite the hatred for the son to his father, which was sometime repaiermended and comforted by Lisa and Jane.
Later after twenty years, when they met again for family reunion, they lost Lisa in an accident, then the movie paces on. I mean ,there is nothing new set of story in these movie but the light just shone their, I simply care for the kind of truce or forgiveness that Michael undertook .

Did you ever knew that you were here..

Sometimes, we human being tend to characterize every thing that we tend to forget we are doing our own assassination, I mean characteristically. There comes a time ,when you think that you have reach a point where at least you can remain steady for a moment ,but then it just get engulf away , away through various channels.
I have been a championing in these particular phrase "love marriage', by supporting my fellow friends and near ones, at the same time, these days I tend to realize that you don't just assume and go forth . You need certain speed breakers to make yourself aware that you are not driving at a great speed. I mean ,take me, I am 25, single, working, life is delicious for me, but at the same time with the walk of life and things going around my backyard , I tend to think of many things that generally a youth would do.But then ,it arose a question of "responsibility' or kind of "commitment" which just makes me realize that I am not in these kind of horizon.

to be contd..

How can it be happening
when things like these happen, you wail
Images, memories still lingers on you
Days you had, fun you enjoy..
those were still memories now echoed as distant memories
Days when you really think that you were in wonderland

Now, you no more are the person you used to be
Blissful, were you now torn apart by those memories
things which you regret to happen just happened
those universal truths just occur twice
Makes you yonder again and again
lest you never walk that time alone

Days when you turn violet,green and blue
Now you remain just a pale image of those time
Overshadowed by those vivid images that you
tend to unfurl it away, which you can't
Questions arise, temples of thoughts awake
but can't help these mystique blues of life?
Have you ever been overshadowed by the myriad dreams..